Sunday, January 20, 2013

Happy Birthday to my precious little one gone too soon. This year you would be 4 and I would be buying you more toys than I would know what to do with. Instead I pray that your great grandpas and your sisters are giving you the hugs and kisses I long to give you. You were called home to early and we never got to meet but I held you in my womb for 23 weeks and I will hold you in my heart forever.  You are never far from my mind and on your special day I will think of you, raise my face to the sky, and sing to you "Happy Birthday".

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Wednesday, January 9, 2013

How Life has Changed

I just got an email from "Michelle Obama" asking me to serve (no idea what this means and don't care to find out) on January 19th, Inauguration Day and then it goes on to talk about the first Inauguration Day the Obamas celebrated four years ago and that's when I realized how much my life has changed in four years.
The last Inauguration Day I found out we had lost Ziggy, so I was in the hospital waiting to deliver her. I remember this SO vividly, I can still picture Michelle Obama's white dress for the ball and I remember looking at the TV trying to find an escape from the hell that I was in but not really watching and soaking in what that event meant for our country.

Now four years later I have lost a total of 3 babies, we are insane and working on me trying to get pregnant one more time (I am confident this will be successful and I will give birth to a beautiful baby), I have lost 82 pounds (and gained 10 back), I have completed my Master's degree, bought a house, completed 2-5ks, and I have adopted 2 of the cutest cats in the world.

It is amazing how my life has changed in four years and how much I have changed (for the better I think). Here's to hoping that the next Inauguration Day I will have changed more (I will be 36) and that I can say how much I love having Earth babies!